Who I am is so beautifully complicated and so prettily simple at the same time. Its taken so long to find who exactly I am. I thought for sure, one hundred percent that I found it in France. I was wrong in a small way but also right. Last night I saw Justin Nozuka. I will post the meaning of this SOON. What my point is that it changed who I am in a matter of hours. I had a day of pure bliss yesterday- PURE BLISS. It was so needed and so cherished.
So what I am saying is that I am me. In so many different ways. I'm different than anyone you know..TRUST ME. I have not and will never lose sight of who I am, of what I am about. I will, forever, stay true to myself. I'm girly, I love all things pretty and pink and flowery and lacey with pearls and sparklies and anything vintage. But more importantly, I am loving and deep and flowing. I see through things to the center. I'm soulful and faithful and in a weird little way, I am sure. I am sure of who I am. I refuse to let someone tear that away from me. I think that to know who you are is so important these days. So many people lose sight of who they are, what they are about, what they believe in, etc. I can't imagine that.
Lately I've been struggling. I came back from France and the toxic society got to me and pulled me out of that bliss back into negativity and unhappiness. Since then, I have been back where I started. But, yesterday really changed me again. Its so imperative to find the happiness in things- the good. Its certainly not easy and sometimes it is so exhausting that you just want to give up. It is definitely a long road to endure- I can atest to that. I know, I know- there are just so many things to be unhappy about. There are also a million and one things to be happy about. You just have to wait it out and try your hardest to find the joy in the small things. That is what did it for me.
Life will always throw us curve balls that we have to swerve away from. Sometimes, though, we might get hit in the leg or arm and it hurts but you have to just walk it off. Keep going. Find good. Find happiness. Find love. Be true to you. Don't let anyone strip you of what you have because who you are is perfect in its own way. Always stay positive. This is what I live by. This is who I am and what I am about. This is me- take it or leave it.
Wishing you nothing but bliss and love and sunny days for your life to come*
ps. I miss France every single day of my life. I will write on that soon, too.
pss. some pretties for today:
ANYTHING by justin nozuka
hush hush, harmony and freedom by henry nozuka and
strip me by natasha bedingfield
